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[22 May 2007|03:02pm] |
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Whoa, so its really been a while since ive posted anything here.
Facebook is literally taking over and liverjournal and everything else seems to have fallen in its wake. The only person i truely know who still uses this and actually seems to have lots of things to write is my sister. So obviously her life is much more interesting than mine or she just knows how to spin it so it sounds like it is.
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[17 Oct 2006|06:01pm] |
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Me and Matt are talking on the phone and for some reason we're talking about teddy bears :
'I still sleep with the teddy bear you gave me'
Oh really? What'd you name it?
'Teddy..'
Oh well isn't that original
'I'm sorry, what was I supposed to name it?'
Matty Bear
'Haha oh. Well sometimes I call it Little Mckearney'
Oh well there isn't anything little about this Mckearney
Haha, he makes me laugh :)
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| have a little faith |
[28 Aug 2006|01:55pm] |
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At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.
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do you ever just wanna get away from everything. nothing is good at the moment and you dont even know why you're so mad and angry and being completely pissed at everything. i dont even know what hit me, but something definitely did, maybe it was too much thinking or things just being kind of on edge or maybe its because matt made me tell him about grade 8 .. but i just feel like crap. i just wish there was someone actually there. like i have friends but not the kind that are always there.. well actually ive learned that pretty much no friend is always there, even the ones you were sure would be arent. and you know that thing; a good friend will always be there no matter what. ha bullshit. not true, well maybe for some of you, and lucky you if thats true. thats one of the only reasons i want to go to high school. i want new people, new friends in my life. anyway
Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.
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| Now's as bad a time as any |
[05 Aug 2006|06:21pm] |
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My mother just gave me the most horrifying sex talk ever. She's insane and just decides we should chat for a while after i finish eating my chicken, it was the MOST awkward and weirdest thing i've experienced in a while. She told me all the horrible things that are going to happen to me if i have sex and then she told me to come to her and we'll go to the doctor if i decide i want to go on the pill. Ah, i dont even know where shes coming from? I think she thinks im a sexually active teen, she pretty much just told me :/ And apparently she gave Lauren one the other day too.. I think maybe shes the sex crazed one. Oh Goddam them all, whatever ew. anyway thats it. i feel sick.
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| i need a hero, im holding out for a hero |
[03 Aug 2006|09:12am] |
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Arrgh, does anyone else's parents make them feel like shit constantly, and tell them everything thats wrong with them and make them soo angry and then get all pissed at them when they're angry, and then they get mad and say you have a bad attitude even when its totally their fault. i hate my life sometimes. i feel so angry, and my parents basically told me that i have no friends, and that im always with matt and that ill regret it later on.. i dont know, maybe i will.. considering all my friends are boys, and sometimes you just cant tell a guy something. ahh crap.
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| you cut me off mid-funk |
[06 Jul 2006|03:45pm] |
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I dont actually have anything to update with, but for some reason i just feel like i really should. nothing exciting is going on in my life. i got a job strawberry picking but ive only been 3 days and so i think ive made what, like less then $50, ooh riiight that'll last. soccer is soccer, and theres a bunch of it.. nationals is in like 2 weeks its pretty crazy and im not excited at all. vacation bible school is this week, the last day is tomorrow. im taking care of Steve, the kid with down syndrome, again. this year hes so gloomy.. his sister says he hasnt talked for 2 months. now thats just plain sad. i got a hug today though so it made me feel better but other then that the only reaction or response other then a grunt or a moan is a thumbs up when he wants more juice which is always. he drank a whole pitcher of juice himself today.. oh well haha atleast hes drinking it and not throwing it on me like he did all last year. oh VBS such a good time ;)
By the way whats up with the weather? its so weird. mehh anyway i have soccer practice soon so i better go, hopefully ill see some of you sometime soon, enjoy your summer days and the nights too :)
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[25 Jun 2006|11:34pm] |
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kay so everything is like going by so fast, this year pretty much flew right oooon by, and its now summmmer, i miss everyone already?! Grad tomorrow though.. so reunited.. but only for a short time. i hope everyone has fun doing what they do this summer, i hope to see you all at one point ! :) Summer lovin' ♥
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[16 May 2006|04:09am] |
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I really havent updated in a while which is probably due to the fact that theres nothing to tell. my life has consisted of pretty much all soccer and will continue to be like that until almost the end of the summer.
there hasnt really been anything exciting going on, lemme see ;
my birthday was 9 days ago so little jill is 15
our friggin ch'town spring league team won in the championship?
my sister is in new york
exams are soooon :S
the weather is amazing and i love it
i go to halifax for soccer tournament this weekend, hopefully find some semi dress if theres time !
soccer soccer soccer
band trip is next weeek ?!
chtown tryouts start tonight, hmm
school dance tomorrow, i dont know if i'll go tho.. :S
hmm thats pretty much everything i can think of, i really gotta get some skills in band cause i have like 3 which is like a fail? and ahh theres just no time for any of this stupid school stuff. bah i want summer now now now. oh and i need a job but i have little skills and even less time. ooh, arrrrgh anyway, enough of me, ♥
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[30 Apr 2006|06:45pm] |
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so dance show was last night. mm hmm, there are some really amazing dancers that i know, sadly i am not one of them. anyway it was fun all in all, after i stopped thinking about how humiliating i was and thinking about how nasty our little 'untitled' dance was. like she basically killed us before we even started, like calling us Untitled. like ouch..
- after the show me, celine, anna, aaron and mary whittrow went to dairy queen and got some yummy stuff, you know how it is. then we all went back to celines fo sleepova time. it was pretty great, good time. its hard to believe the dance show even happened? im all like k what its over, but then im like oh yah we still have classes.. but for what point? its weird. i love dance show time though, like the past week was so much fun with like our subway dates and rehersals and wicked talks, haha oh man. anyway hope everyone had a good weekend and to all those dance umbrellas out there good job saturday night ;)♥
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| its about time again to start the party, sweat drippin' over ma body |
[24 Apr 2006|03:29pm] |
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helloooo !
tralala.
k so you know when things are really good, and you're all like 'wow things are great' but then theres that thing that everything can only get worse and then you get that bad feeling, you know like things are going to go down hill? i hate that, a whole lot. but luckily i dont have it. i really hope, and think that things are going to be good. i am in control, i feel good, i am happy. and i hope thats not too much to ask, and i dont know, maybe exams and tests and just life will get in the way and things will change but i just hope/pray or whatever that everything just turns out.. Amen.
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i have nothing to say other then,
Yay for friday & weekend♥
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[29 Mar 2006|08:58pm] |
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totally stole from christine ;)
1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME:
(your fav. fruit & your street name)
strawberry north river
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME:
(grandfather/grandmother on fathers side first name, favorite candy)
anna gum
3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME:
(first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
J edw
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME:
(favorite animal, high school mascot)
turtle crusader
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME:
(middle name, city where you were born)
Sarah Charlottetown
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME:
(first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name)
Edweilsam -i dont have a pet but i want a dog named samson;)
8. PORN STAR NAME:
(first pet's name, street you grew up on)
Kelly North river
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| alright already we'll all float on anyway |
[27 Mar 2006|09:28pm] |
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Hello !
ahh hope everyone had a good break since its back to school. which really sucks and now we have to decide on all this highschool stuff and about our futures and things and its just nuts considering i dont even know what i want for the future. AHH anyway enough, i say.
my trip was really good, its nice to be back.. i guess ;) missed everyone. mexico is definitely better then dominican if anyone wants to know. i would fit in in mexico so well, everyone is soo short there, like wow. anyway had a lot of fun and did some of the following :
-swimming/water sports
-went to Coba [ Myan ruins anyone? temples and pyramidish things in the jungle.. ]
-visited mexican peoples homes and they showed us around [ too cute! ]
-played some intense beach soccer oh boy.
- got a black eye from the above ;)
- actually made some friends ;) yay jill
-beaching/tanning of course ;)
speaking of tanning i wish i got like much darker but whatever nothing i can do, my parents are like niggs and laurens like .. well she doesnt really tan. mexicans are sooo cute by the way they're so nice and you cant beat a crazy mexican with a mullet that dances like micheal jackson and wears a retainer sometimes. yup i know one. his names nelson. anywayyyy matt just phoned from florida :):) he'll be in school on thursday if anyone else cares! i miss the kid, geeez. anyway AHH im really in a good mood now, kk thats enough.. like no one will read this thing or comment anyway !
adios.
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[17 Mar 2006|10:24pm] |
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Well its officially march break :)
Tomorrow is off to Halifax and then onto Mexico.
Pretty pumped. I wish everyone a super, super,
very nice break. And to all those going somewhere
Safe trip ! everyone ; don't be too naughty and
I'll see you all in a while crocodiles.
♥♥♥
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[12 Mar 2006|02:23pm] |
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But you cant stop nothing
if you got no control
of the thoughts in your mind
that you kept and you know
its crazy how you can find someone and be friends with them even tho no one would ever expect that you would even talk. its amazing how that one person can be so many things to you. not physically other then the odd fist match just for fun. and you can tell them anything and talk to them about anything, wether it be sex, friends, jesus, how pissed you are, the past, cardboard boxes it doesnt matter they listen. they know when you're angry and they know when somethings up. they're there, and always are. they make you smile and they say things you cant believe. they make you feel good. they listen and give without expecting in return. they remember something trivial and small you said 3 months ago. they're just plain amazing.
i think everyone needs a friend like that.
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Live for today, we'll dream tomorrow.
We've got big plans in site.
We'll take this city, and by nightfall
the bright lights are calling.
Everything is going our way,
everything is just as we planned.
This is our future for what we've heard,
and its still got your hand.
And it feels like, we could last forever,
and im not doing this alone.
When memories fade, we've got eachother,
when time and confusion collide, singing
"I hold it all when I hold you." When friends
walk other ways, we've got eachother.
"I hold it all when I hold, I hold it all when I hold you."
We've fell on hard times. This isn't the ideal,
we're miles from home doing the best that we can
I wont do this without you, wont do this without you so
take heart. Cause you know that you have mine.
And it feels like, we could last forever, and im not doing this alone.
When memories fade, we've got eachother,
when time and confusion collide, singing
"I hold it all when I hold you." When friends
walk other ways, we've got eachother.
"I hold it all when I hold, I hold it all when I hold..."
It's not about the money we make,
it's about the passions that we ache for. What makes
your heart beat faster? Tell me now, what does your
body long after? I don't care now where we live. It's
not where, or what, or who we were with. I just need
you in my life, so promise me again.
When memories fade, we've got eachother,
when time and confusion collide, singing
"I hold it all when I hold you." When friends
walk other ways, we've got eachother.
"I hold it all when I hold, I hold it all when I hold you."
New favorite song. its so good. i love it, and it just makes me think of things in my life sorta. & im pretty sure my yearbook quote is gonna come from this song ;)hmm :) haha oh and i just made badminton, HAHA ranked 3rd. pretty funny i must say! thats it, hope everyones good cause im in a good mood.
♥♥♥
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[28 Feb 2006|07:18pm] |
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Hello,
finally allowed back on the computer! wow its crazy. i keep on like not going on it cause i forget im allowed. haha yah coo coo. anyway nothing much has been going on, end of term coming up and im getting lots of tests back. fuck i hate when my dad tells me an 88% is no good. like umm k whatevskeee. totally got all my skills today. ooh it feels good to be done with that insanity. hmm whats else.. matt and i have been going out for 6 months yesterday. ahh its crazy to think about. wackoo i must say. and to think back about how much things have changed between us and just in general since those 6 months ago. hmm.. oh man haha going out for badminton for the hell of it. pretty sure there is only 5 of us so we like automatically make it? haha its hilarious. queen of the court, yup i think so.
things i need to do ! :
*get organized
*be smarter
*actually study (ha)
*lose some fricken weight
*be happier
*get a fricken hair cut ( as much as i dont want to )
*be a nicer person
ookokokokokok soooo thats it.
Much love
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ahh, all my friends have been talking majorly about semi lately. and its like what, 5 months away. im totally excited for it and everything but then again.. like ah i dont know how to explain it. everything for me is pretty much already planned out which makes me feel better in a way but also kinda worse cause what if all the fricken 'plans' get all fucked over. this whole thing is a complete mindfuck. i wanna find a really nice dress that i like and that i actually look good in, baha good one jill ;) and i wanna lose weight before semi soo bad.. mm hmm ok girlfriend aint gonna happen. ah well tis all im babysitting and im bored and watching some movie? anyway byeee
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your past mistakes hold no weight
cause we're always moving forward
never turn around, don't look back now
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